i wanna add anew entry. there's nothing to talk about though. i'm just gonna type whatever comes to my head. i'm not gonna take my eyes off the keyboard. i never look at the keyboard when i type. but now i am. and it's pretty fun. it's so weird how my fingers know where the keys are. and it's weirder watching it. man.

i watched a movie today. it was nice.

i just deleted two paragraphs about my gooma and how funny she is. i wrote it for so long that it wasn't funny anymore. so i deleted it.

i watched a movie today.

shit i didn't even realize that i already wrote that.. i've just been looking at the keyboard.

my life sucks today.

youtube isnt working.

ehh watched a movie tonight. cried !!

went to the mall. shopped !!

listen to music.. ehh.. DOWNLOADED !!

ahh dir en grey's new album isn't all that bad. namamekashiki ansoku, tomadoi is a good song.. really good. their new songs are either really great or kind of bad-quality. even though some songs like agitated screams of maggots aren't great [pretty bad actually], they still show they have talent. i like i like i love diru forever. hahaaaaaa.

shit. downloading isn't working and my mom is psycho. eeeeeeeeh. i'm so tired. today wore me out. so did yesterday. yesterday didn't come home at all; went to tam's and then went to chinese school. today, woke up early for ballet and after, shopped for 2 hours at mall and then watched a long sad movie. i'm dead now. which reminds me..

"let's go into that store.."

"no..if i do, i'm gonna lose three years of my life."

friday -- came home, did homework. went to chinese school. did nothing at chinese school. came home and watched discovery channel.

saturday -- went to dance. came home, watched shows. modified room. cleaning house.

sunday -- woke up, got on comp. so fascinated that i can listen to music in my room on speaker. charging my ipod. tammy helps get gothikaroid. elaine is happy happy happpaaay.

it's a pretty relaxing weekend. but we have exit exams on tuesday and wednesday. and i haven't read through the booklets. so i'm kinda scared. i'm not looking forward to the essay part and the geometry part. bleh. i should review or i can't get a diploma. foooch.

oh yeah. kelly got the pictures from emily. extremely super happy. chou supa happy. i know you hate that song kelly. i know you do. wooh... so getting the pictures on monday on a very important little CD. aghh waited 5 months for those pictures XDD. i feel like i've accomplished something.

is it just me or ever since 2007 started, school has become more stressful? all the teachers just love pressuring you.

oh SHIT. i'm way behind on turning in my application for school at berkeley.

FUCK.

i should date my papers correctly at school. and i should also buy new ink cartridge for my printer. agg my history paper is all gross >_O

this week was pretty strange. it felt like it was different in a way, but i have been doing the same thing again and again. my schedule hasn't changed. i still do the exact same routine each day. wake up school dance eat work sleep. yahh. i wish something would happen.

there really is no reason behind posting an entry in xanga. its better than myspace though. myspace just sucks you in. all it has really is music and pictures. and comments. and soon it gets boring. seriously.. if i had kept my myspace, i would have gone crazy. thinking back, it made me depressed. i could see all these other people's exciting lives but i couldn't be a part of it. so now i stick with xanga. with the uber gaxy toshiya in the back. except he's not gay.

mblah. i wish i could learn how to make friends. i've realized that because i'm shy at first, i can't make a conversation, which makes me friendless. except for a few.

man. the only fun day of the week is friday. and i'm actually looking forward to dance now. yes i complain about it. but i probably couldn't go through life without complaining. silly and pathetic huh? but anyways. i complain because the idea of having to GET ready for dance.. like.. changing into those tights and leotard and having to put your hair in a bun.. it's boring. at the studio, sometimes i get attitude from the teacher. i just wish that sometimes she could actually say something positive instead of always having me fix something. i already have enough things to fix. yes yes it's good that i'm receiving critique and stuff. but being criticized each lesson isn't the greatest.

wow. and didn't i just say i'm beginning to enjoy ballet?

agg. things i couldn't live without: complaining and music.

oh yeah. and people. only a few though.

i wonder how my xanga entries would be like once i become super happy. it would sound a little different.

AGG!! f/ing emo. [haha i win at finding ways to not cuss]